♡

in my heart

is where you’ll be

i’ll keep waiting

until we meet

new year, new revelations; pt.4

so much has happened in the last 2/3 weeks 

and i simply can’t deal with the waves anymore. 

i keep going under and i’m drowning this time. 

i want to live life like an endless river stream. 

and all i find are tsunamis.

finally found someone to call mine and he suddenly goes to jail for 6months

so i’ve lost another person yet again. 

sure he’ll come back and i’ll wait but missing him already hurts.

i adopted a new kitten and i love her so one silver lining. 

but then i learn i have to find a new flat within 2 months 

and i can’t afford to live completely on my own. 

and my credit is still jacked so i cant buy a new car yet. 

and i remember when all the guys chased me coz i was 

this cute liddo scenekid and my biggest concern 

was bitching out the plastics for starting some rumor. 

i want to breathe like the sea, travel world alone and live simply.

it seems the more freedom we seize as we get older

the more trapped we are due to responsibilities.

i feel like i just keep trading one cage for another. 

i just want to fly far away. 

and start all over 

where no one knows me. or the mistakes iv made.

my boyfriend does this adorable thing where he doesn’t exist

(via profashionall)

NATIONAL #FOREVERALONE.GIF DAY, WOO!

now to chug red wine and watch 8 hours of Twilight!

depression is my new obsession, home sweet home.

self mutilation, welcome to the creepshow~